Need a distraction

Its hard to go on with my day and enjoy this freedom when the past is heavily on my mind.

My heart is heavy and I just want the feeling to go away

I need more than hope to get over him.
Its crazy how the heart works, although it gets hurt it still stores the love you had for that person.

I just want to erase my memory. All that Ive known of him were lies -- Im not even sure who I was loving and why I continue to think of him.

grrrr it upsets me to think every word was just a lie.

So where I am now I need to change, and I thought the best thing would be something to distract myself. Maybe even a get away.

So my first thought was to do boxing

I guess it can help with my anger -- pretend his face is the punching bag.
Most deff a good work out =)

But then I figured well if I want to relax rather than beat down a punching bag I can go to the spa

Seems really good. Time to relax and be around nothing but positive energy.
But would I lay there and think of him?

What about starting my own garden?

I don't have much of a green thumb but I could try.

Thats all I can do is try...