The person in the mirror

everyday I struggle with this thing called self-esteem.

most people who are close to me would not believe this is something that would affect a person like me; ms. peace and love her self.

yes! I'm human and I pick myself apart like all normal young adults do...

So what is it that makes women not like the skin their in or have low self-esteem?

I think it has to do with the media and the atmosphere you were raised in.

The media believes women should be these magnificent creatures that are always perfect 24/7

NO ONE IS PERFECT and for sure no one can be perfect.

Behind the make-up, fake eyelashes, hair extensions and thousand dollar clothes their all just regular women. who live regular lives and experience the day to day struggles life may bring.

But why are things that we looked at as taboos like plastic surgery turn into things we envy for good looks?

I can't lie and I wont lie, I watch these tv shows and award shows and wish I were in their shoes sometimes. These women are beautiful...

"perfect everything..."

Their lives seem so wonderful and fulfilling.
I look in the mirror and wish and hope that would be me.
I pick at my body wishing things I pinch would disappear.

"I am my own worst enemy"

and that is true; I'm the hardest on my self.
I struggled with finding who I am in my young teenage years;
that came with baggage like depression, low self-esteem and sometimes suicidal thoughts...
life seemed so hard back then. Not being the prettiest girl in your circle of friends or always being the 'home girl' to guys when you really wanted to be more.
Which made me struggle with love when it came along...
I didn't find myself and who I am now til my senior year in high school. But still I struggle with accepting my self the way I am to this day.
I have days when I could really look in the mirror and love what I see
but some days I'm stuck in bed not wanting to see that reflection in the mirror

"I'm obsessed with losing weight"

my friends think I'm beautiful the way I am; but the person inside thinks other wise.
I buy these magazines and watch these shows that brag to you that they can show you how to lose 20 pounds in 2 weeks or the most popular diet on the market today.
ughhhhhh I just want to pull my hair!

"I shouldn't be worried about the lbs. I should be worried about being 100% healthy and being grateful that god has blessed me with another day. Life is just too short..."

Its so hard to think positive when there are thousands of things everyday reminding you of what you aren't and what you don't have.
I look up to many artist that send out positive feed-back to women out there to love themselves. Artist like Queen Latifah, Alicia keys, Raven Simon, Tyra Banks, ect.

"I want to change the world, one woman at a time"

I want to change the negative thoughts women have in their heads about the reflection they see in the mirror. I think that's why I started my club 'Sisterhood' at college.

I wanted to change the image people had of women on campus and I realized it started with the girls first. All of them had self-esteem issues; granted most of them were dancers and had very fit bodies. I seen not one thing wrong with any of my girls. But that goes to show it all matters what you think about your self and how you carry your self.
Its so hard to see young women struggle with the challenges I went through as a teen when life means more than that. Everyone is beautiful in their own way and you don't need a man or anyone else to tell you that your beautiful; god knows that, that's' why he made you the way you are...
I say thank you to the plus size models paving a way for full figured women out there to be okay with the skin their in and to love your curves. They give women that are not a size 4 more confidence about their double digit pants size and how to embrace their beauty...

"You are beautiful no matter what they say Words can't bring you down You are beautiful in every single way Yes, words can't bring you down Don't you bring me down today..." Christina Aguilera